First

First steps.

First Word.

First Heartbreak.

First Love.

First Last First Kiss.

First Fear.

First.

We start out not having any firsts, blank slates, and as we grow up we have moments that will forever be our firsts. Some moments are bigger than others, some we won’t know the importance of until we are much older, but one thing is for certain, they are terrifically and terrifyingly a moment that will never happen again. It like this infinite amount of time, that we will keep with us forever, only to relive it through memory. As we grow up, I think we all fear running out of “firsts”, but I don’t think that is necessarily true. A new moment, unique in itself can happen at any point in your life, in any order, that is what makes life so special. It did however scare me, because in a way it felt to me as if the more firsts that were passing me by the faster I was growing up, but I turned to God in this fear and He showed me something. The more first moments we have, the more we are experiencing the life He has planned for us. The more we say, “I have never done this before”, the more our lives will be enriched by God’s grace and joy. This fear I realized was a lack of trust in God, in the faith that He has a ridiculously wonderful life planned out for me, and even in my doubt He showed his love and forgiveness. That is who is planning your life, God is putting moments and experiences in your life to make it better. He has a path for us and all along it are these unique moments He will put into our lives. To me, the thought that we have Him to fill our lives is the most comforting and exciting thought. Of course we are all scared about what our lives will turn out to be in the end, wondering what “firsts” will make up our lives, and that is okay, but trust in God. Take this moment as a first, the first time you turn to God and with your whole heart say “I believe in you, I love you, and I am ready for my life, bring it on”.

So. Go live a life of firsts.